February 22, 2010

First day down

And it went well, very well.

I'm exhausted - no wonder since I've been lounging around the house for the past couple of months. Heh. Nah, it's actually information overload. I've had a crash course in mortgage banking plus the usual first-day orientation stuff. My head is swimming.

First project meeting is tomorrow - no fooling around here. I'll be starting with two projects, and a third is waiting for after I get a little more acclimated. I will be busy, and I'm glad.

Unexpectedly good: my new commute. Got there and back in about 45 minutes, and that includes driving in freezing rain on the way home.

Unexpectedly bad: I accidentally reset the combination lock that tethers my new laptop to my desk. How embarrassing to have to call the helpdesk on Day 2 and explain that one.

All in all, a very satisfying day.

And I'm not going to talk about it anymore. I'm really ready to get back to other topics.

February 20, 2010

Undeserved

Grown in My Heart has a list up of the 101 Best Adoption, Loss and Infertility Blogs. This blog is undeservedly in the list. I thank Grown in My Heart for including me, but can't for the life of me think of why. I haven't said an intelligent word about adoption here for a long time - partially because of recent work events, but not entirely.

I've been struggling on the adoption front for awhile now with the feeling that always pointing out the bad stuff doesn't really help improve adoption. Part of this is due to the fact that I just can't shake that feeling of hypocrisy that has dogged my writing since the very beginning - that feeling that because I have benefited so much from adoption that I really shouldn't be pointing fingers at others, especially when I myself was truly waffle-headed about adoption issues at the onset of this journey. I knew nothing and thought little about first parent loss, accepted our agency's party line, and moved forward. It has always seemed a little disingenuous for me to be bashing the bad guys when I was pretty much the same way back when.

Maybe still in more ways than I realize.

Seeing my blog on that list is a bit of a wake up call. I really need to get through this mindset and figure out what I want to say, because it's in there. I'm just not sure how to get it out of my head, particularly now with all the life-changes going on. (On that front, I start the new job on Monday - I'm really excited, a little nervous, but most just grateful to be re-employed.)

I will work on that. In the meantime, I thank those of you who have started following when I'm not even writing. And I thank GIMH for a shout-out that I most definitely do not deserve.

February 10, 2010

The foulest four-letter word: S _ _ W!

The first round (really the second, because we had one almost this big in December) was daunting. But we treated it like an adventure, didn't really mind the power outage and took the muscle aches that resulted from the shoveling in stride.

We were proud of ourselves for digging out - Third Dad even got his car uncovered and built himself a little snow-bordered parking spot for it. He sawed up all the downed branches, too - there are enough to build ourselves a new tree. Yesterday morning we got out, the streets were fine, we ran a bunch of errands and felt like life was returning to normal.

But it's not. We have another six inches on the ground already, there's more on the way, and I can now say with conviction:

THIS IS NO FUN ANYMORE.

With every creak of the house I think the roof is caving in. Practically nothing melted up there from the first snow because the power was out when it feel, so there's a lot of weight bearing down on our heads. The thought of more shoveling has my right shoulder attempting to run for the hills.

I think you guys in the midwest and northeast get to join in the fun this time. I hope it's not as bad as down here - I think you all manage it a lot better than we do anyway. We just don't have the budget for the road chemicals, although most jurisdictions have gotten a lot better in recent years. But this is more than we can keep up with.

On the positive front, I got all the offer materials for my new job via email this morning. Except for the drug test, the onboarding process is entirely online. That, plus taxes and this year's FAFSA will keep me busy until my target starting day, Monday after next. And maybe if I get done with all of this (and the new shoveling) by the end of the week, and I spend next week catching up on everyone's blogs!

February 4, 2010

The home stretch

I got an offer.

A very good offer, a job with everything I have been looking for, and more. I'm still pinching myself, still not quite believing it happened.

I have to pass the background check and drug check, and need to go through the lengthy onboarding process, so I'm keeping all my options open until I'm absolutely certain it's a done deal. But given my boring life, unless chocolate is a drug, I think I'll pass these last hurdles without a problem.

And then, on February 22nd, my target first day, I will exhale. In the meantime, I am sending the most positive thoughts to every single person who is experiencing job loss. No one should go through this, everyone who wants to work should have a job. I want that for everyone in this boat with me.

I attribute my incredible good fortune to two things: the grace of God and the help of people who told me right out of the gate that a solid resume and throwing the net wide were the keys to success. Roberta of The Copywriting Maven, you were the first to make it clear that a resume has to show accomplishments, not just functions; you got the wheels turning and got me going. The coach at Impaxis, the career transition company my old employer made available to us riffees, gave me great advice and a cold-eyed resume review. Once I knew that my background had something to offer and was packaged well in my resume, I had the confidence to start sending it around. And boy, did I send it to a lot of places, some I knew I wouldn't qualify for, others that looked like dead ringers. Think throwing it on the wall to see what sticks.

I am feeling a sort of survivor's guilt, too. I know that those who read this who haven't yet found their new position will read it with a pang - gosh knows I've been feeling those pangs these past couple of months as my co-riffees found work. I hope, though, that anyone who is feeling that pang - really, anyone who is unhappy in their work, underemployed, overworked, whatever - and wants something new will go for it. Just go for it.

Everyone who starts at this company is on probation for 180 days. I think that's pretty common now, I think my previous employer did that, too. If all these final pieces fall into place and I really truly start on the 22nd, I want to work really really hard, to pass through that probation period successfully and to make this job my newest career. I have a lot - A LOT - to learn, because as I said I'm not a dead ringer. I bring a different perspective to the position, not to mention I have a whole lotta software to learn, plus a pretty complex financial subject area. I want to learn it all and just work really really hard for a long time.

Thanks for hanging in there with me, everyone. Thank you very, very much.

And keep the fingers crossed that I get through these last gates!! It ain't over till it's over, and for me, over will be when I'm sitting in my new chair! Got a few things to do before then!!